Missing you all

I've really been missing my Sydney friends this week. I made the mistake of checking out the kids' old school bulletin online...just to see what was happening...and ever since I've been feeling homesick...not for our home in Sydney (as I love this home environment so much), but for my friends and my daily routine of catching up with them at pick up at school, or ballet or assembly... It's been a long time for me since I've had a network of friends like I had before I left...I didn't for the 3 years we were in NY, and not even for the first year back in Sydney. And, as always seems to happen, everything just fell into place for me right before I left Sydney. Particularly as Matt was here for those 3 1/2 months and I had to rely on people more and I really felt looked after.

And now I miss them all dreadfully. It's not that we don't have friends here, but I don't have my own. And I can literally go a whole week without talking to another adult besides Matt...sometimes longer. The kids go to school on the bus and I hang out here...no where to go, nothing to do. And while that actually doesn't bother me (I enjoy my own company and find it wonderfully indulgent to be able to do what I want), I have just realised that I miss that little catch up, and miss feeling like someone is happy to see me and just chatting. I miss being able to share my experiences with people (and I guess this blog tries to fulfill that need).

In fact, I've been having a lot of dreams where I go back to Sydney, and find it really hard to decide where I want to be...there is SO much about here that I LOVE, and yet, it's those human connections I miss...and the wonderful school where the kids were. I guess in a perfect world I'd have it all.

So to all the girls out there (who probably don't even read this blog), I'm really, REALLY missing you!!!!!